not news I’m sure
Posted October 4, 2009on:
but it’s official: I’m depressed when sleep-deprived beyond a certain number of hours. Like today. I don’t feel like myself. No energy nor motivation to do anything with May and for May. I sat next to her watching her playing and yet felt so removed. All these are classic symptoms of depression. Blah. I need those 3 hour stretches of continuous sleep to return soon! Sleep is not only important due to its restorative value, but also a respite from physical pains. The constant tugging and sloppy latches are killing me. The pains are what compound my blues. Exhaustion alone can be suppressed, but piling pain on top of it takes too much energy to manage.
Outwardly I’m still functional and OK. I’m sure many moms are like this. This is just what’s going on internally for me. If I get a break tonight, I’ll find myself happy again tomorrow, I’m sure. I think Jukki needs sleep